bluefrenchorn

will you learn from this? will you experience enough suffering? will you be aware of everything that you’ve lost to then recognize that you’ll never want to lose it again, this time? will you take the chance that you’ve been given? will you believe that just the time away made you a better person, or will you prove yourself by showing others that you have become a better person? will you overcome this disease? will this disease overcome you, once again? will you understand that this one action is not what makes us sad, but rather what makes us sad is realizing that you needed help, and none of us knew it, including you? will you accept that we have helped you every step of the way, and that although living to everyone’s standards, and constantly playing “pay-back” includes living a less-than-independent life, will you be strong enough to live this life? will you recognize how much pain you have caused us, and will you be able to live a full life not completely surrounding this fact, but rather living for it? will you forgive yourself for what you’ve done, and believe that you are worthy of living a full and loving life? will you feel worthy of all you’ve been provided? will you lose help? will you believe in yourself? will you become the person i want you to become? will that be the same person you’re planning to become?